The Abiding Comforter

Since the very beginning of this diagnoses, I have felt secure and comforted.  I’ve had an overwhelming sense that I will make it through this, and that the grass is greener on the other side.  Many people have asked me how I’m dealing with the pressure of knowing I have cancer, and a very dangerous one, at that.  Knowing that I have to spend so much time away from my family, worrying about them while undergoing chemo, losing my hair, etc.  I answer the same way each time, “I just know.”  As silly and naive as that may sound to some, it sounds strikingly clear to me.

I couldn’t put my finger on why I was so confident in this feeling until I received a wonderful letter from my dad.  It’s a letter from his dad, Bill Sr., that was found among his possessions after he passed away.  I felt so strongly that it needs to be shared, so I immediately asked if he wouldn’t mind if I put it on my blog.  I hope it opens more eyes than just mine.  The letter is beautiful.  Beautiful.

A Testimony for My Family

“Each of you have heard the term “The Abiding Comforter.”  You have heard it mentioned many times from the Pulpit of our church.  You are also familiar with our belief in the Trinity, “The Father, The Son & The Holy Ghost.”  It is this
“Abiding Comforter” that I would speak to you about.

John 14:26 states, “But the Comforter, which is the Holy Ghost, whom the Father will send in my name, He shall teach you all things.”

John 15:26, “But when the Comforter is come, whom I will send unto you from the Father, even the spirit of truth.”

The passage I really love, John 14:16 states, “and I will pray the Father and He shall give you another Comforter that He may abide with you forever.”

In each of these verses, Christ is speaking.  Like you, I had heard of this Comforter, but perhaps through lack of understanding did not worry about it one way or another.  The Father God, the Son Jesus I took into my heart very seriously, but the “Holy Spirit,” “The Comforter,” I passed over I guess.

Many years went by and during these years I feel I grew closer to God, and learned to love Him in a way that was warm and comfortable.  My feelings for our Father and our Savior Jesus the Christ was not one of fear, or distant personality, but one of love and realness and closeness.  God and the Son were with me each minute and each hour of every day & night.  Then I realized that I was witnessing the presence of “That Abiding Comforter” that will dwell with me forever, if I permit it to.

I am here to testify to you that this is the greatest feeling a person can have.  There is nothing too big, too dreadful, too complex that you cannot face.  This does not mean that from this point on everything will be rosy.  It means this to me though, I can face these things whatever they might be because the “Comforter” is with me.  To share the burden with me, To give me that strength that’s needed, To tell me everything will be alright, To let me know each day of my life that God is with me and loves me.  Most important that the Abiding Comforter will not leave me as long as I believe in the Father, the Son & the Abiding Comforter.

It is my sincere prayer that each of you will receive the Holy Ghost, that Abiding Comforter to be with you.  It is the greatest feeling, Pray the Father that you receive it, Christ says to you then, “Peace I give unto you, Peace I leave with you.”  And I will pray the Father and He shall give you another Comforter, that He may abide with you forever.”

This testimony, like all testimonies, is a blessing.  Testimonies touch our soul because of the truth of the Spirit behind them.  That Spirit has comforted me tremendously.  As I continue to lean on the Abiding Comforter, my hope is that my family and friends will as well.


10 thoughts on “The Abiding Comforter

  1. Wow! Just Wow! What a wise man! Those words could apply to anyone and anything. Prayers are continuing for you, your mom, your family, and your doctors! What strength you have! Thinking of you constantly!

  2. Stephie this is beautiful and truly what we should all strive to live by. Bill Sr. was a very wise and loving man and his son very much mimicks the same wisdom and love! Well taught Bill Sr.! Thank you for sharing this beautiful found treasure! Love you with all my heart! Aunt Kathy

  3. Steph,
    Dad would be touched and honored you endorsed his written testimony. He would be so proud and in awe of you for your grace, strength, courage and faith…as am I, your Mother, family and friends. I love you daughter.

  4. I’m a friend of Gina Esau and know that you know we have been praying for you at our church in Hennessey. I was diagnosed with breast cancer 2 years ago and I know how you was probably 2days after the initial diagnosis when this overwhelming peace came over me. It never left! You granddads letter is awesome, do true!

  5. Hey there my beautiful cousin! I never knew how much faith and trust you have in the Lord. I am so proud of your will to fight. I can see through your writing that God is with you. I pray He lay his hands on you and heal you from this evil disease. I pray He strengthens and gives your little one’s and Lee the courage and comfort they need to stay strong in your corner. Keep taking the punches but throw them right back. Keep up the good fight and press onward in knowing the Lord is with you. I love you cousin Steph!

  6. Your dad is one of the most, if not THE most, heartfelt men I have ever known, Steph. His sharing this with you only shows his love for our Abiding Comforter. I listened in my Bible Study tonight to the reminder that if we receive him, he will breathe life into us. Your belief in his healing is evident. Praying for you–physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually–every day, all day.

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